Life
A current to the sea? More like rapids. I splutter and choke, getting scraped up legs and a foggy head. Every once in awhile , my head goes up, my body down, and I see sunlight. Once in awhile.
Why does it hurt so much? Why does the startling spray make my stomach disappear as my heart fills my body. Why do I contemplate yesterdays now and forget about today's second? I throw my memories into focus and am completely blind as my future fades.
Should I look ahead? Should I look nowhere and just endeavor to float? Should I purposefully swim to the rocky depths and hang onto a boulder till I can breathe no longer.
Things grow up and die; things grow old and disappear; I, caught in time, watch and mourn.
My fingers no longer grasp at comforting hands. My arms embrace no body. I sit in a freezer full of frozen bodies and long to freeze, myself. I sit on a cliff, watching vultures wheel, and long to fly. The cold seeps into my muscles, the depression into my calves. If I cannot fly, then no longer walk.
Deadness embrace Deadness, or just embrace me. Greenest leaves and purply flowers, reddest blood and sallower skin. These things only do i see, and after seeing, pray screaming.
Fantastic. Love your writing James!! You are sure missed but we are thankful in what ways God is using you back in Hawaii!
ReplyDeleteAhh, there he is. :) I hope you're doing okay. We, on the other hand, are suffering from a lack of witty comments, discussions on literature, and conversations sprinkled with inside jokes and movie quotes... What's a kid to do?
ReplyDeleteAgreed. :( sniff ^^^
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